After 2.5 years of late nights, freak outs, stomping feet, pats on the back, hard work and copious amounts of coffee and wine later, I FINISHED SCHOOL!!!!!
When I decided to go back to school in 2009, I did so because I thought it would help me in my business. I had just started it and quickly felt that I needed a little something more. I felt that if I went back to school to finish up my psychology degree and, eventually, get my Masters in Psych, I would be “that much more” prepared for a business as a health coach.
Well, a lot has changed since then!
What I quickly realized after I started school was that I had actually gone back out of procrastination (a very expensive procrastination technique at that)! I didn’t go back because I thought a Masters degree would make me look more credible, I did it because I got scared! I doubted that I could run a business and began to make all manner of excuses to step back.
That being said, I wouldn’t have changed my mind for the world.
No, I won’t be pursuing my Masters but in the last 2.5 years I have learned so much about myself and many of those lessons were taught in how I approached going back to school as an adult. I learned to prioritize my time, I learned that age does not mean I’m going to get amazing grades, I learned that I can carry out research WELL! I learned that I value my family more than I value a degree. I learned that, sometimes, you just have to suck it up and do the work. I learned to actually READ things probably (I should have finished in two years, NOT 2.5. Another expensive mistake) and I really learned that when I’m really meant to do something, life finds a way of making it happen.
Was I ready to start my business in 2009? No. But even though I realized that my going back to school was a procrastination technique I know now that it was meant to happen. When I first went to school in 1999, I graduated after three years instead of four with a general bachelor of arts because I didn’t have the self worth to believe I could finish. Now I know that not only do I have it in me to finish what I start but that I can exceed my expectations. I learned that I have the drive, determination and focus to achieve anything I wanted to. That if I really wanted to, I could get my Masters but I choose not to.
In 2001, when I first graduated University, I wasn’t proud of myself. Deep down I knew that I had given up. I had actually planned on quitting but went to the career counsellor who told me that I could graduate a year earlier instead. This never sat well because I always felt as if I copped out. I may have gone back to school to procrastinate from life, but I finished it to prove that I could make a goal and achieve it. Even one that I started thirteen years ago.